I went to the hospitable my dad had a stroke,for the second time. I'm pissed,why? Because he has high blood pressure and refuses to take is god damn meds. Him not taking his meds has been going on since December and I even told him its like a ticking time bomb and it just exploded. Trying not to acted SUPER PISSED is really hard. I didn't say anything,mom was talking,and he's just lying there trying to tune mom out. Mom left so the was just me and his full of awkard silence. I was the one to break that awkard silence. I chose my word carefully but I just really wanted to say: "ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR FLIPPING MIND?! YOU DRINK,SMOKE,EAT LIKE A PIG AND DON'T TAKE YOUR FRICKIN MEDS? WHAT THE HELL?!" But I said that in nice words. Now both my parents grew up with out a parent. My mom lost her mom and my dad lost his dad so yeah. I kind of told him I migh be young but i'm not stupid and I will make you take your meds even if it kills me. So I made what I called "Samaria the stalker plan" I have to go to his place everyday hang out,watch over him,MAKE HIM PUT DOWN THE DAMN SALT,you know stuff like that. I know if I died my parents would be devestated and I would be if anything happend to them so I want to try and help keep my dad healthy because well he's old! He's 60 now and I want him there when I get married,hae some demon spawn bbs crap like that. I feel bad about not being sad,don't get me wrong I uber happy he's alive and everything but he won't take care of himself! I don't live with him so I can't make sure he's ok all the time. I ended up making a story/letter whatever you want to call it and my mom found it and gave it to him. I will tell you what it said too.
Where are you headed? Why do you do this to yourself? To the people that love you,do you enjoy to see there pain? Even mine? Is your chest a cage,is that how you feel? Let me break this. Your being self destrutive and at the end is your unwanted death. Tell me where we go from here? Do you go back to your ways of dying day by day? Or do you recover? Be better,stop poisoning yourself. If not for you for me. I was told I was just like you and it was an insult. I love you but I refuse to turn out like you. Destroying my body just for a moment of fun,sickly sweet fun.Broken city sky and ashs on your skin,tears like death in mine you stand alone. No longer with me your waiting for death itself I will not be with you this time. Angel can you here me? Live and take care and i'll be by your side every step of the way.But if you don't I hope your happy with the choice you made because I'm sure as hell not.
Thanks for reading this (If any of you did) I feel better now. A Marelle chapter will be out soon.
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